--I got it. Taking care of the car and expanding your experience and skill sets and using gifts etc. But the environment.... I look at my weather gadget --it is still geared in to Eagle Butte weather, and it reads -8 degrees (F), windchill warnings of -25. Extreme is one word that comes to mind.
--and I was waiting for her to say something about the Spirit. She did. She said transformation, change --resurrection is God's part. All morning I had been on the verge of tears --not sure why, except I had asked to leave the camp and go look at pretty things during our personal time tomorrow, and was told no, stay here. And I had so gotten my mind set at looking at pretty things. And I think sleep and really good fresh food is restoring me in unexpected ways, that I was finally strong and well enough to want to cry.
Because, experience has told me that resurrection is always on the other side of tears.
And, so much of the conversation is about living faithfully or about living according to the rules. It reminded me of the best advice given to me on driving my car down the back roads --when it gets tough, just scream and drive in to the ditch! It also reminded me of the book recommended by M on Temple Theologies --are we sons and daughters of Abraham and move faithfully, or are we in exile and given the Law as our way....
Driving in the ditch, I think, is a matter of faith. Staying on the road follows the Law.
Or so it seems this afternoon.
So, I will ponder the strength to cry, and the hope of transformation/resurrection. I choose the ditch and faith. And I will tend to the body, the vehicle --restoration, sleep.
At prayer, constant prayer (Canticle: A Song of Our True Nature, Julian of Norwich)
Christ revealed our frailty and our falling, *
our trespasses and our humiliations.
Christ also revealed his blessed power, *
his blessed wisdom and love.
He protects us as tenderly and as sweetly when we are in greatest need; *
he raises us in spirit
and turns everything to glory and joy without ending.
God is the ground and the substance, the very essence of nature; *
God is the true father and mother of natures.
We are all bound to God by nature, *
and we are all bound to God by grace.
And this grace is for all the world, *
because it is our precious mother, Christ.
For this fair nature was prepared by Christ
for the honor and nobility of all, *
and for the joy and bliss of salvation.
Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: *
as it was in the beginning, is now, and will be for ever. Amen.
We are all bound to God by grace...